Saturday, July 26, 2008

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a few weeks ago at reunion, hank (the lead pastor) was speaking on valuing kids. he made the following statement based on Jesus' comments about children found in the gospels (Matt 19:13-14, Mark 9:36-37): "You will never fully understand the Kingdom if you don't hang out with kids."

i found this statement, and the whole sermon for that matter, to be both compelling and extremely relevant to my job at the moment.  i am not one who loves working with kids; i don't consider it to be a strength, passion, or desire.  nonetheless, i spend nearly ten hours a day with 11-15 boys between the ages of 10 and 12.  many of these boys come from broken families, difficult socio-economic realities, and bad schools.  they bring a lot of baggage with them to camp, and therefore can be very difficult to work with.

case in point: yesterday, while at nantasket beach, two boys got into a fairly nasty fight (over 4-square rules, of all things).  before i could get on the scene to break it up some awful words and names were exchanged and a few blows landed.  it is painful and sad to see 11 year old boys acting like hardened thugs.

counter-point: later in the afternoon i rewarded three boys with ice cream for having had a great week.  it was fun to treat them to soft-serve and "jimmies" (bostonian for sprinkles) and to watch their reactions.  tariq and eddie are both pretty low-key and they said "thank you" and quietly went about the business of eating their treats out of cups.  joao, a loquacious cape verdean who has been very difficult himself at times, and i made the mistake of ordering ours in cones.  i wish i had my camera because words cannot capture the mess joao made trying to get his cone into his mouth.  but he ate the whole thing with a huge smile on his face, his nonstop banter both hindering his progress and making the moment even more enjoyable for us onlookers.

there was ugliness and beauty yesterday at the beach.  the highs and the lows of working with kids experienced within hours (and often seconds) of each other.  if nothing else i think this summer is providing a context for hank's comments that i shared earlier.  yesterday i saw the kingdom in a kid who dropped his facade for a minute and let his joy in the moment radiate through his soft-serve and jimmie stained smile.

Friday, July 18, 2008

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- thoughts on church...

...so, for those of you who don't know i am a pastor's son, a seminary graduate, an intervarsity alumnus, and i just finished a two+ year church planting experience.  on top of that i've read (probably) way too many books about church.  so i bring along some baggage when i go to a new church.  it is difficult to take the critic hat off and fully enter into the experience.  for these reasons, and many others, the church transition has been, perhaps, the one i've been most nervous about...

...all that being said it seems like we're settling in with Reunion Christian Church.  reunion is a new non-denominational church in boston (they are associated with the big idea, for the church model nerds out there).  this weekend amy and i are going camping with some folks from reunion's sister ministry Sojourn.  check the links if you want to know more about them.  pray that we'd have a good weekend and that we'd start some new friendships.

peace

Saturday, July 12, 2008

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- thoughts on work...

my job as a unit leader with bird street's summer day getaway program is three weeks old at this point (and has finally produced income...woohoo!).  this job is a nine week position helping run bird street's summer day camp.  i am in charge of a unit of two junior counselors (high school seniors) and 13-15 eleven and twelve year old boys.  every day we bus these kids out to hale reservation, a cool spot about forty-five minutes out of town in the woods.  mostly i just supervise, take care of paper work, and make sure the group gets to their various activities on time.  

my group has turned out to be one of the biggest which means i have more direct interaction with the campers (ideally the group would have ten campers, five with each of the jr counselors and i would be doing supervision and leading the jc's).  also, i've discovered this job to be pretty physically demanding...lots of walking, throwing kids in the water, lifting coolers, carrying a first aid bag and my backpack in humid and hot weather).  by the end of the day i am pretty beat...but, i am getting toned and tanned =)

i'm also learning the lingo a bit.  probably the most important word here is "mad."  this can be used in a variety of situations to describe both amounts and qualities.  for example: "mr. steve there are mad bugs at this camp."  (i.e. there are a lot of bugs)  or, "mr. steve it's mad hot today."  (i.e. it's very hot today)  to clarify, if you are acutally mad (i.e. angry) at someone you wouldn't say "I'm mad mad at you,"  you'd say "i'm so heated with you."  so there's your slang lesson for the day.

peace

Saturday, July 05, 2008

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- hope everyone had a great 4th!  here are some pics from the festivities in boston...

...lots of people...


...sunset on the charles...


...the city at night...


...fireworks!!!



Friday, July 04, 2008

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

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alright, alright...i'm getting some flack for not posting for a while. it's been a little crazy in the boutry household over the last two weeks.

recap: amy and i got married on june 7th, honeymooned in mexico for a week, packed up a budget rental truck the day after we got home (the 16th), hit the road the next morning in the wee hours and drove all the way to durango in one shot. wednesday morning we packed up my stuff, had lunch with some friends, and were back on the road (we spent the night in denver with my aunt and uncle). thursday morning...more driving, followed by more driving, and then...some more driving. we didn't stop until we hit boston in the late hours of friday night/saturday morning.

so, after many miles and hours and a small fortune in gas we slept in our new home and then saturday (the 21st...my birthday) we began unloading the truck and moving in. we've made some good progress over the last couple of days (no pictures yet...still working on getting the 'net in the new house), but we've been busy with other things as well.

what other things? i had my first fenway park experience monday night. i started work yesterday. we saw dave matthews last night. and on top of all of this, amy's grandfather passed away sunday night.

please pray for amy's family and for amy as well (she just got here and now has turn around and go back to california to be with family and go to the funeral).

there's been a lot going on. oh, and our roommate arrives in town today.

anyway, we are not complaining. we love being married! but pray for rest and comfort and for a slower pace of life to settle in soon!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

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...the wedding day has come and gone, with all the planning and details and people to talk to and hands to shake now in the past. it was hectic but full of great moments, with some great people. see, for example, this picture:

...the honeymoon has also come and gone, with it's sitting around doing nothing and looking at this:

...which means that the time has come to drive a great distance...all the way from Salinas to Dorchester, via Durango...

...that's the quick update...more pictures and updates and reflections to come in the near future!

...for now: much gratitude is felt to our wonderful family and friends for all the help we've received in the last weeks to make all of this possible.  we are deeply indebted to many of you for your generosity and helping hands!

...so a major thank you, from amy and steve!


Monday, June 02, 2008

Saturday, May 24, 2008

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- miscellaneous thoughts...

- two weeks to the wedding!  it's almost been a week since i left colordao...time is flying by.  right now i find myself doing various pre-wedding related tasks, trying to sell my car, and resting up after a hectic last few weeks.

- i think i finished my time well in durango...everyone surprised me with a visit from the parents for my last sunday...very cool.

- i finished off the brick at lady falcs...hopefully when we go back through in june it will be painted and up and i can take my picture with it.  for now, this will suffice...cheers!

Sunday, May 11, 2008

12459 last_week

- i organize my life on boards...a clipboard (for paper and notes) and a white board (for an outline of my week)...so here is my last week in Durango...crazy.


Friday, May 02, 2008

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- just over two weeks left in durango...here are some updates regarding the future...

- we will be living in this house (on the first floor)...

















...which is located in the fields corner neighborhood of dorchester, ma.

- i will be working this summer at the bird street community center...employment that will hopefully continue into the fall (please pray for a full-time position!).

- last, but not least, i hope to spend a few days here =)

peace

Sunday, April 27, 2008

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- last night i had the opportunity to help two good friends get married. this was my first ceremony and it was fantastic...better than i could have imagined. most importantly, i think they were really happy with how the ceremony went and that is the best! here are some pictures:

Thursday, April 24, 2008

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- tonight we said goodbye to our friend sean, a young dude who has been a pretty important part of our farmington crew.  he's off to florida and some new adventures.  pray that sean will find a community where he will be valued as much as he was here!

Monday, April 21, 2008

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close...

...that's how i feel about so many things...getting closer to the wedding date...closer to locking down a place to live and a job in boston...closer to leaving durango and CTK...closer, closer, almost, almost...

...it's been a weird tension for a while, but is becoming more tangible and palpable all the time.

pray for sanity and the clarification of some of these "almosts"...especially the job and the house!

thanks

Monday, April 14, 2008

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i've been reading The Autobiography of Martin Luther King Jr.  there's a lot to say about this book, but i've decided to limit myself to five quotes...here it goes:

The worst disservice that we as individuals or churches can do to Christianity is to become sponsors and supporters of the status quo.

Contrary to some shallow thinking, the responsibilities of the pastorate both stagger and astound the imagination.  They tax the whole man.

I was convinced that worship at its best is a social experience with people of all levels of life coming together to realize their oneness and unity under God.  Whenever the church, consciously or unconsciously, caters to one class it loses the spiritual force of the "whosoever will, let him come" doctrine.

Along the way of life, someone must have sense enough and maturity enough to cut off the chain of hate and evil.  The greatest way to do that is through love.  I believe firmly that love is a transforming power that can lift a whole community to new horizons of fair play, goodwill, and justice.

(Our) guiding principle has since been referred to variously as nonviolent resistance, noncooperation, and passive resistance.  But in the early days of the protest none of these expressions was mentioned; the phrase most often heard was "Christian Love."  It was the Sermon on the Mount, rather than a doctrine of passive resistance, that initially inspired the Negroes of Montgomery to dignified social action.  It was Jesus of Nazareth that stirred the Negroes to protest with the creative weapon of love. (emphasis mine) 

- i could go on and on with amazing and timely quotes: King also had a lot to say about war, hunger, economic inequalities, the defense budget, and many other things that are quite pertinent still, especially in this election year...instead, in the spirit of Dr. King, here's a song from Tyrone Wells:
  

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

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i'm back in colorado after a whirlwind weekend that included a marriage conference, a job interview, apartment hunting, a tyrone wells show, some rain, and even a little time to hang out with amy =)

right now it feels like i have 60-70 percent of the picture of the future (or the future that will begin in two months) but that last 30-40 percent is still getting to me...

59 days, 8.5 weeks, 6 sundays...that's all that's left...

ps. and 29 beers

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

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- this is a fantasy baseball post, so if you're not into that you can just scroll on down to the comment section and leave your sarcastic remarks! (this is for the 2-3 of you who care about this kind of stuff)...

- yesterday was opening day for most teams and the first day my team collected points...here's how it went:

Hitters
Victor Martinez, C, Indians: 2 for 2, 1 run, 1 rbi, then he tweaked his hamstring...great
Travis Hafner, 1B, Indains, 1 for 4, 1 run,. 1 rbi, looking for "pronk" to rebound and have a big year
BJ Upton, 2B, Rays, 1 for 4, 2 rbi, hoping for 30/30 and loving that he is hitting cleanup for that team
Alex Gordon, 3B, Royals, 1 for 5, 1 HR, 1 run, 2 rbi...i got to see his home run during lunch at miller...such a beautiful swing
Edgar Renteria, SS, Tigers, 1 for 5, 1 rbi...not the type of player in normally like, but the SS i wanted got picked right before i was going to take him (by literally one pick!)...so i go with edgar and the stacked lineup of the Tigers!
Matt Holliday, OF, Rockies, rained out =(
Delmon Young, OF, Twins, 2 for 4, 1 run, 1 stolen base...love that he is running all ready, hoping for 20/20 (you can tell i went with some unproven, high upside guys)
Jeremy Hermida, OF, Marlins, he's on the DL (nothing new there) but should be back by the weekend (I'm using Eugenio Velez in his stead hoping for some cheap steals)
Frank Thomas, DH, Blue Jays, also rained out...i'm not excited about this spot in my lineup, i'm hoping i get lucky with either Big Frank or Hank Blalock or someone else...a gamble for sure.

Pitchers
Carlos Zambrano, Cubs, 6.2 innings, 5 ks, no runs, 0.60 whip, then he went out with forearm cramps...uggh.
Cole Hamels, Phillies, pitches tomorrow (he's supposed to be the more fragile of my aces, so i'm keeping my fingers crossed that Zambrano's cramps are no big deal)
Ian Snell, Pirates, crazy game yesterday 12-11, 12 inning game, X Nady hits two home runs!...snell started, 6 innings, 4 runs, 3 ks, 1.50 whip...ok, but not great...hopefully just some opening day jitters.
Tim Lincecum, Giants, pitches tomorrow...go timmy!
Clay Buchholz, Red Sox, a bit of a gamble but i like the rewards possible with this guy...pitches on friday
Shaun Marcum, Blue Jays, pitches this weekend...i thought he was a steal with my last draft pick!
Joe Nathan, Twins, 1 inning, 1 save, 1 k, classic joe nathan
Todd Jones, Tigers, 1 inning, 1 k...i'm also rolling the dice with my relievers, but hey, that's nothing new...i figure jones may give me an ulcer but he's going to get a ton of saves with the Tigers likely to win 95 games.
Brian Wilson, Giants, did not pitch, and he may not have many opportunities with the crappy Giants. oh well.

that's my team...3rd place after one day.

happy beginning of the baseball season to everyone!

Monday, March 24, 2008

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- i feel really blessed and encouraged after a great easter yesterday. our easter service was a lot of fun, with a great turnout of people, a full band (or close to it!)...and, this is difficult to describe, but a feeling of "rightness" about our new place and time. i don't know if that is the correct word, but it just feels natural and good when we are together on sunday mornings at matt's house.

- after our celebration, i went over to dave and cathy johnson's and got to eat a delicious easter meal with the johnson family, which is always a joy and priviledge. while hanging with them i got the distinct impression for the second week in a row that chip and jenn and family are in a good place and in good hands here in durango. while i was never going to be able to "take care of them," it does encourage me, as i leave, to see that they are well cared for in ministry and family life. very cool!!

- then, i spent the rest of the afternoon with some of the young couples in our church. we ate (i ate well yesterday!), played music together, and had some great times. there were a couple of moments where i imagined that this community will still be together, eating and playing music, months from now, when i am long gone, and that also was an encouragement to me. real community has been formed here. also very cool!!

- these are things that make me very happy.

pictures:



Tuesday, March 18, 2008

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- it's been a busy few days...here's a run down of recent events:
- spent a great week with amy...we got our invitations done and bought wedding bands...very cool!
- we had our first sunday morning service...it felt very natural and normal.
- we met with Patrick Crossing people to discuss some more future possibilities and partnerships.
- i drafted my fantasy baseball team (the centerpiece of which is Matt Holliday)...hopefully this will be another winner.
- now, it's back to the grind! 

- here are some pictures
 
the new place:


















- Hanging out and Invitations:


Thursday, March 13, 2008

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- this has been a great week of hanging out with amy!  we've gotten some stuff done, but we've also been able to catch up on some movie watching.  here's a summary:

1) Once (every one's probably seen this, but it's great...great music, interesting story, well shot)

2) Gone Baby Gone (takes place in the Boston neighborhood where amy and I hope to live...also raises some interesting questions about society)

3) King of Kong: Fistful of Quarters (story of two guys going for glory by recording the all time highest score in donkey kong...sounds lame, but it's unbelievable...probably the best of the three...a fascinating study in human nature)

that's it for now...

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

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political thoughts...

today is a big day in the democratic primaries (obviously), plus i've been reading Jesus for President (which i won't comment on, except to say that whether you read the book or not, pick up a copy and look through the pages...the design is unbelievable...it makes a Rob Bell book look boring in comparison), so in that spirit i offer my thoughts:

i actually don't have too many sophisticated political thoughts at this point. just a sense of angst (which is true of many other aspects of my life these days, so why should politics be any different?).

anyway, i've been a fan of Barak Obama since his speech at the '04 democratic convention. my reaction was, who is this guy and why isn't he running for president? a few months later i received his memoir, Dreams From My Father, for Christmas and i really enjoyed reading it. last year i read his other book, The Audacity of Hope, and i enjoyed that as well. i love his background, what he represents, that he spent time in south Chicago working in neighborhoods familiar to me, and, i admit, when the guy speaks i get chills...he's an incredible communicator.

however, i feel conflicted about his campaign. part of it is stupid and selfish. three years ago he was still under the radar and it was like discovering this cool band that few other people knew about and every now and then i'd run across someone who knew about Obama and there was this knowing, insider look we'd exchange. now everyone has an opinion about Obama, and i feel the same way i feel when that cool little band all of a sudden gets huge and everyone knows them and has their opinion about them (and your parents are going to their concerts...sorry mom and dad, couldn't help it!). so, that's my dumb reason for feeling conflicted. on to the more important reasons...

...here's the tension i feel:

1) i hope Obama wins and is the next president of the United States. i've voted in two presidential elections and both times it felt like i was choosing the lesser of two evils. this is the first time in my voting life that i actually like a presidential candidate for who he is and what he stands for, not because he seems slightly less worse than other guy (i apologize for my male-centric pronouns). but...

2) i also hope Obama loses and does not become the next president of the United States. i am extremely wary of power, especially political power: the ways that it changes people and what it does to a person's soul. i also fear becoming more disillusioned with the political system by watching someone i admire compromise and play the inevitable political games that one has to play.

so here is what i hope actually happens...Obama wins the democratic nomination, but loses the presidential campaign. he then decides to go back to the grassroots level and community organizing, using his new found clought and profile to stand up again for people who desperately need advocates, all the while speaking prophetically into our political system. probably not going to happen (my audacious hope), but that's what i would really like to see...

...comment starter: are you hopeful or wary as far the '08 presidential race is concerned?

Friday, February 29, 2008

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my best man was on the price is right yesterday...watch it here (click on february 28th)

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

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wrapping up a big weekend...

1) we called last sunday (2/17) vision cast 2008...we said we wanted to continue practicing the habits of worship, community, and service, maximizing what we do through authenticity (in the spirit of love, acceptance, and forgiveness) and accessibility (by widening the metaphorical side and front doors of our church). this week we talked about what that looks like: namely, open small groups that are actively praying for the people about to come, and moving our weekend service to Sunday mornings. Sunday mornings accomplishes two things for us: a) it seems a better time for the people we are attracting, and b) it allows us to further partner and cooperate with matthew's house and patrick's crossing...an opportunity we are very, very excited about.

2) along those lines, the church co-op idea is gaining some steam...last night, in partnership with PC, we were able to screen the film Lord, Save Us From Your Followers. the response to the film was very positive overall (a few people walked out and the crowd was definitely made up of church people...not a bad audience for the film, actually), and i think the big take away was that there are some churches in this town who are in to cooperating and sharing resources, as opposed to competing against each other. pretty cool!

3) my thoughts on the film: quality production...i would have focused on some issues less and others more, but still a great effort. some people who did a great job (i.e. they were thoughtful, dignified, and passionate in a positive way): tony campolo, john perkins, bono, rick warren, and al franken. others did not come off so good...no need to name names. if you have the opportunity to see it this summer, i would strongly suggest it...you will cringe, feel embarrassed and angry, but also moved and inspired.

4) here's an interesting article, especially after watching this movie: evangelicals

5) new podcast page! we're trying to get the last two weeks on there as soon as possible.

peace

Friday, February 22, 2008

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- ctk-durango and patrick's crossing have the priviledge of hosting a screening of this film on monday at the abbey theatre. check out the trailer...

- we hope this will provide a unique opportunity to dialogue with some folks who are suspicious of organized religion...

Monday, February 18, 2008

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i couldn't be more encouraged with church right now:
- i am very excited with our direction
- i feel like i have a grip on what i need to "do" for the next three months (yes, my last sunday is exactly three months away...crazy)
- i love the group of leaders who are stepping up or taking on bigger roles
- i wish i could share more details, but those will have to wait until next week

other thoughts...
- i couldn't resist...i signed up for Yahoo! Winner's League 20045...bring it on suckers!
- i love driving with chip to farmington...great conversations
- it's finally warming up and i love watching the snow melt away =)
- i'm so pleased that anna got to meet nina...finally
- do the giants really think bengie molina is a clean up hitter?  there has to be someone else!
- it was good to see ryder at church tonight
- i'm feeling deep gratitude for the generosity of the waley's
- 45 or so beers to go (you know what i'm talking about!)

peace...

Thursday, February 14, 2008

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- pitchers and catchers reported for spring training yesterday, so i cooked a feast to celebrate:


- it's a big old stir fry, in case you couldn't tell...i used the following ingredients: red and green bell peppers, zuccini, yellow squash, mushrooms, a dash of garlic salt, tapatio, and...wait for it...bratwurst!!! (served over rice) baseball season is here, ah yes!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

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thoughts on blogging...

i'm struggling for topics this week, so i think i'll blog about blogging. it's not as if there aren't things to talk about. in fact, that's part of the problem...there's almost too much going on right now. i'm currently working a ton, helping implement some significant changes in our church, applying for jobs and looking for housing in boston, helping to plan a wedding, caring for people in my community, and all the while continuing to prepare for marrige and investing in my relationship with amy. plus i'm reading books, having conversations, listening to new music, and playing fantasy baseball, so there's no lack of thoughts in my head...

...however, sometimes i struggle to know what to blog about. it would be a lot easier i suppose if i just picked a topic and left it at that. for example, i could blog exclusively about any of the following topics:
1) church
2) fantasy baseball
3) engagement/wedding planning
4) books
5) music

but instead i've chosen to be more inclusive and try to integrate all these things into one blog. i think sometimes my blogging suffers as a result. thoughts? is it better to cover a bunch of different topics, or is a topic specific blog the way to go?

Sunday, February 03, 2008

10659 snow_day part II

- this weekend i was in seattle/mount vernon, washington, for the CTK Arrows Out Conference. we (chip, dave, steve) had a great time, were energized by some great conversations, and made some big decisions regarding the future of our church...our reward: an even worse storm than last weekend has descended on durango...

...and so we are stuck in denver.

- the good news is we got to see the super bowl (great game, by the way). we also aren't missing too much because everything has shut down in durango (tomorrow will be another snow day for the school district...the second time in a week, after eleven years with no snow days!! that should tell you how bad this storm is!)

- the bad news is we just want to go home! please pray we can make it tomorrow...



ps. we made it back!!! thank you Jesus.

- here are a few pictures from the conference:
















- waiting at the airport (notice the weather update!)


- in front of my apartment (a lot of snow, but not nearly as impressive as in chip's neighborhood)

Monday, January 28, 2008

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picture time!

- it's been snowing a ton!  today they shut the schools down (snow day!), which almost never happens (no snow days last winter, for example).  here are some photos from around my apartment complex (hardly the heaviest hit area)

outside my front door:  
my car:
the mailboxes:

- also, last night we had a little party for joe...a send off if you will...since this is one of the last times the three of us will be at church together we took some pictures...very nice!

serious men of the word
not as serious!

Saturday, January 26, 2008

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weekend thoughts...

- pacific pride: the tigers (5-1 conference, 14-5 overall) are back in the
mid-major top 25!
(they are #22)

- getting excited for the
CTK Arrows Out Conference next weekend.

- i enjoyed the anna v. john paul debate on the last post (see the comments on
10359 if you missed it)

- i recieved my first Durango jury duty summons (i call tomorrow to see if i was selected for monday)

- finally, and most importantly, if you read this before 6 pm (MST) on Sunday (1-27) please pray for me! i'm teaching on john 4. thanks...

Sunday, January 20, 2008

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pop culture thoughts

- i saw cloverfield tonight with seth, josh, keith, et al. unbelievable...my mind is still blown.

- someone asked me a few weeks ago about what it is i look for in music (i think dad asked me this). jon foreman's song "the cure for pain" pretty much sums up everything i look for in a song. listen to it here.

- also, more comments on the last post are welcomed.


ps. anna (who has a cool blog) became the first person (finally) to reference the quote under the title (stand at the crossroads...): major bonus points to whoever can tell me were that quote is from...i'll make you a shirt or something.

Friday, January 18, 2008

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- thanks to those who left comments/emailed in response to 10159. i appreciate the bio suggestions and husband advice. now, my apologies for a longer post...

...most of the readers of this blog are aware of this, but for clarity's sake, i'll reiterate this fact: i am getting married in june and then moving to boston, which means that my CTK time is coming to an end. a frequent topic of conversation with amy has to do with me leaving CTK and going to another church (in fact this was a big part of our conversation last night). as i mentioned in the last post, a major thought swirling about in my head right now concerns how to leave durango well. that sounds like a really nice thing to say, but much harder to know what exactly that looks like.

some classic advice on the subject goes along these lines: "you want to leave_____better than when you got there." well, that's not too hard (or too helpful) as there was nothing here before and now there is something. other classic advice has to do with maintaining relationships and not burning bridges...this is really important (as i've learned before), and i will try with all my heart to do this well.

further complicating the issue is that this is an interesting time for CTK-Durango, as we are experiencing our first season of big change, especially in the original core of people who moved here to start this campus. it is a little scary, but also exciting to watch as new leaders emerge (or as people just take on more responsibility). it is hard to be part of the reason that this transition has to happen, but i want to try to be helpful in this moment as much as possible.

so while there are definite areas where i can be helpful, the trickier issue for me as i leave, i htink, is going to be my attitude towards the new church community i join. i am really excited about amy's church, reunion. they are a church plant and they have the same 3 core values that CTK holds. i've met some of the staff and they seem like really cool people. i think what they are doing is great and i resonate with a lot of their philosophies and their approach to minsitry.

but i still sense a bitterness and frustration creeping into my soul. will i be able to just "go" to church? will i be able to submit to leaders i don't know as well as i know here? will i be able to be a part of a church that i am not actively shaping/leading? i struggle with these questions right now.

i know that i don't want to be that guy that sits in the back with his arms crossed thinking "i used to do this," or "i could do this better." i don't want to be the "crabby-ex-church-planter" guy contsantly quoting the churchy books i've and criticizing everything i see. dear Lord, i don't want to be that guy. but i know that it can be so easy for me to be that guy.

a couple of weeks ago, in farmington, we were studying Luke 14:25-27, about the cost of following Jesus. again and again, Jesus points out that we cannot follow him on our own terms doing what we feel is comfortable. it will not be comfortable for me to go to another church at first, but i am trusting that at some point (hopefully sooner than later, especially for Amy's sake) i will be able to do this.

i know that church leadership is always going to be part of my life and i believe it is also part of my future. on wednesday night, on the way to farmington, chip spoke some amazing words of affirmation into my life about this very thing. last night, when i was going off about not wanting to be "crabby-ex-chuch-planter" guy, amy said, very profoundly, something to the extent of "you might be crabby but i think adding the 'ex' part is wrong." i needed to hear that.

well, that's my life right now...apologies again for the length. so, new comment thread: advice (please) on how to leave a place well, and how not to be a crabby member of reunion.

Monday, January 14, 2008

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i'm not a big new year's resolution person. i think this is mainly due to the word "resolution." i did a little wikipedia work on the word. on the one hand i understand why this term is used (def 1 & 2: the state of being resolute...a vow, or statement of intent). this is all well and good, but it also sounds too definite...like it's already happened, and now i don't have to do any work because everything has been decided (def 6: a formal statement adopted by an assembly).

i like definition 9 the best: a progression from dissonance to consonance. first of all, this is a music term, which i resonate with (ah, another good musical term). second, it points out that resolution is a process/progression. third, we make new years resolutions because there is something missing or out a whack in our lives (dissonance), and we hope that by implementing our plan/process (resolution), that we find some harmony/integration (consonance). i like that.

here are my resolutions or 2008:
1) finish my time in durango well
2) acquire wisdom on being a good husband
3) find a job in boston
4) ...this is the real point of this post...read several good biographies/autobiographies. on the list so far: martin luther king jr, einstein, pete maravich. i need more! please give me suggestions on good biographies to read. (also, if you have any leads on resolutions 1-3, i'd love to hear those as well!)

Monday, January 07, 2008

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- shoot man...it's been snowing a ton! here's some evidence



















- addendum to top five lists #1
...saw Juno this weekend.  what a great movie!  it easily would have been 1b to Sant Ralph's 1A had i seen it in 2007.  great characters, good writing, excellent sound track, wierd sense of humor, fantastic casting, and one of the best closing scenes of any movie i've ever seen.

- today is january 7th, which means that it is exactly five months until amy and i get married...let the countdown begin!